stop—trying

People said "Don't stop trying, don't ever give up."

I totally agree with it. But in some cases, it's different. Sometimes we need to stop trying for the right reason. Like when you really fight for someone but that person doesn't seem like you to do that, I think you need to stop. In my opinion, no matter how hard you like someone you can't force him/her to like you back. We don't always get what we want. That person might has some acceptable reasons and you have to understand.

I've been there and I already did it. It doesn't mean that my feeling will change, it won't. I'm just afraid that I'll make everything worse. You know, I feel suck when I make a person feels uncomfortable with me. All I can do is just stay away.

I believe God has another great plans for me, because He is The Almighty One.

There is something bothering me lately. Friendship stuff. I know there’s always problem in friendship but this time it’s getting serious. Try to imagine, you had been in friendship with someone but now it’s not the same anymore. You have no idea how to settle things between you and this person. You have even said sorry but this person didn’t say anything. You have no idea what to do. You ended up being ignored.

That is not me actually. They are both my friends. I am sad to know that kind of situation. It hurts me to see that to be honest. I miss the moment when we were all together. I want to see us together again, like the old times. I can’t do anything because I do not want to interfere. All I can do is praying that sooner or later we can hangout together, forgetting all the past, become good friends.

Friendship is one of the most important parts of my life that makes it beautiful. 

Meditation.

It's been a long time since I wrote my last post in this lonely blog. I might be too busy, too busy watching movies, reading books, and eating (certainly) hahaha.

I realized that being alone makes me stressful. But I can't deny that I also want to be all alone sometimes. I would make my room like a prison cell. No body could get in. I usually lock my self and doing anything I want: watching movies, reading, blogging, or.......just sleeping Zzz. It's not that I become anti-social, I just want my own space, my free space, without anybody bothering. I call this as a meditation. I find it fun to do this kind of meditation. Just be ware that don't do this too long, it will even make your head explodes!

Do not ever pity yourself too much because of stupid excuses like 'Nobody cares' or 'My life is so pity' or 'I don't have anyone' or 'I am forever alone' or whatsoever. Just believe that we are not alone because there is always our Almighty God, He will always be with us. Be grateful of what we have now.

Nina Nesbitt - Peroxide (Album Stream)

FINALLY, Nina Nesbitt realeased her debut album "Peroxide" ! Her first single of this album is "Selfies" and it keeps climbing up on music charts. Good job Nina! In this album there are 13 tracks, including her previous songs like "Stay Out" and "Hold You". It's such a big success of a debut album. Like always, her unique voice makes all her songs interesting. Love  it! xx

Tracks

1."Peroxide"  

2."Stay Out"  

3."Selfies" 

 4."Two Worlds Away"  

5."Align"  

6."Mr. C"  

7."He's The One I'm Bringing Back" 

 8."18 Candles"  

9."Tough Luck"  

10."The Outcome"  

11."Hold You" (featuring Kodaline) 

12."We'll Be Back For More"  

13."The Hardest Part"  

What I learn about SHARING. What I learn about KIDS. What I learn about LIFE.

Actually it has nothing to do with the title haha.


I’ve been attending a non profit organization for more than two years, it is called LPK Tepi Sawah. This organization is suppossed to provide a good place, good facilities, and good environment for children in a small village called Cikonjen, Bogor, Indonesia. It’s such a good opportunity for me to be a part of LPK Tepi Sawah. 

At first, this organization was made to improve the computer skill of those children. But as time goes by, we’re not only teach them computer but also  basic reading, english, math, and even drawing. I am one of the teachers. We are here as volunteers.

Sunday is our day. Every Sunday children come to LPK Tepi Sawah. These children live near LPK Tepi Sawah. They always brings their own stationery. They were always enthusiastic in attending the class. We have a computer lab for computer lesson. Other activities/lessons were held outdoor.

The kids love drawing the most. Yep, like kids normally do. But they never forget to study the main lesson first, like reading excercise, math, and english. They are vaious from pre school until junior high students. Even the little ones who can’t even hold a pen :”)

They are all cute. You know, although they live far from the ‘modern-stuff’, far from the city, they never complain. What they know is just having fun, study hard, and make friends. They have pure hearts. That’s why I love kids. Sometimes I feel like they’re my own children. Seeing their smiles is pretty refreshing. It’s like I don’t want to spend my Sunday in other places.

Since I’ve been here, I don’t know, it seems that I changed into a better person. It changed my way of thinking. Like I found something I had never seen before. Those children’s smiles brought me such a special feeling, took me into a peaceful space of my soul.

They have pure hearts, innocent faces, cute smiles, unstoppable curiosity, just like the way we are (when we were kids). But the difference is (probably) their childhood is not as same as ours. For example, some kids don’t have any chance to get any good facility like ours at home. That’s why we should have been so grateful of what we had in the past, as kids. But that doesn’t make them down, I can always see their bright smiles and I can see hopes in their eyes 

First thing in my mind for my first post in this new place

I know it's late to make a first-post-in-2014 or stuff or yeah I don't care. It's January 26th in 2014 and I'm screwed up here, in my new bedroom (yeah we just moved into a new house), have nothing to do. Thank God I am still alive. 

I always have resolutions like mostly people do (and those are mostly like wishes, not resolutions). But how to make them real? Back in 2013, I had sucessfully made some of my resolutions become real, REAL! Like I finished my first thesis and I graduated for bachelor degree and got a job. But those are not enough, yeah people have a lot of dreams, a big bunch of dreams, we are all free to dream, right? The first thing came to my mind in 2014 was I have to be a better person. Well, that's classic but powerful, I guess. 

If we think logically, everyone wants to be better. Today must be better than yesterday. Tomorrow must be better than today. Wait, then what day will you exactly be better? 

Life is not always smooth as a tiramisu ice cream (what?). But seriously, it would be boring if your life is that smooth, trust me. Life has many tastes, taste of challenges, chances, joy, tears, desperation, and love (what is it again?). You will regret if you never tried all of those tastes. Hey make your life alive man!

It's not that I've made my own life alive, man. Yeah it's hard, indeed. I mean I'm starting to feel bored with my own life. I'm just working in the weekday and being a lazy ass in the weekend. I'm screwed, totally screwed. Honestly I have many things I'm thinking about inside my mind but none of them turns into something in my real life. It's like "I know, but how?"

I hope this year will be something to me, I can do something, and I don't need to say "What on earth I have to do with my life?" 

And one thing.........

(if you don't get this I'd suggest you to watch How I Met Your Mother? He's truly awesome, he guess)

MCBUSTED, dream comes true

It's Monday but it feels like the best day ever. Why? Because...MCFLY AND BUSTED ARE GONNA HAVE  A JOIN TOUR AS MCBUSTED NEXT YEAR

Oh God.

It's a miracle.

Though Charlie Simpsons will not, will never join McBusted, he tweeted that he supports James and Matt :)

I think it's what everyone has been waiting for. Mostly, Mcfly's fans are Busted's fans and Busted's fans are Mcfly's fans. Their first's tour will be start at April 2014. I don't know if it's even possible for Jakarta to appear at their tour list. It's like the probability is nearly zero. Hmmm.

Fixed become a Nesbian

NINA NESBITT

I knew her from Youtube. I was searching something and found her Stay Out music video on the related results. I don't know I was just interested to check the video and I completely  fell in love with the song. I love the way she plays guitar, sounds simple but very easy listening. After watching Stay Out, I started to watch all of her videos on her Youtube channel. And I began to search Nina Nesbitt on Google. Wow, I was surprised she was born in 1994, such a young. From the sources I red, she already has 5 EPs since 2011. Cool.
This is the list of my favorite songs of Nina Nesbitt:
1. Stay Out
2. Way In the World
3. Just Before Goodbye
4. Statue

NESBIAN

Well, Nina Nesbitt's fans call themselves as Nesbian. N-E-S-B-I-A-N. Don't change the first letter, okay? I'm not the only one in the world who fell in love with her music. She already has many fans around the world. She has started her tour in some cities of UK and also her upcoming tour will be in New York, NYC, pretty cool, isn't it? I wish I could see her live performance someday. I really wish.

The Ingredients of Friendship

Friends. It's not just friend, but friends. It's not just a six-letter word, it's a seven-letter word. Do you remember when you got your first friend? You must be very happy at that time, right? So did I.

As the second daughter in my family, my very first friend is surely my lovely elder sister. Thank God I have a sister. I can't imagine if I don't have her, what my life would be, what my self would be. You know, having an elder sister is like having a role model. Although we used to fight each other, as children, I honestly always observed her before I do anything. The way she talked to people, the way she wore her clothes, OMG my sister shouldn't read this post. Beside that, we used to share our clothes, I always got the secondhand stuff, pity me, pity younger sister -___-

There's a relation between friends called friendship. Friendship is like a circle that consists of smaller circles inside it. It is us who can manage those circles to be balanced.
How to manage them in a good way?
What is the recipe?
I'll tell you some best ingredients.

TRUST. It's clear that before you make friend with someone, you have to make sure you can trust him/her. Why? One of the reasons why I want to have friend is I want to have someone that I can tell him/her anything, anything that I can't tell others.

CARE. I'm happy when some people care about me. When someone asks: "Why do you care so much about that person?" The answers might be: "Because he's my dad", "She's my sister", or "She is my friend". Yes, because we care about him/her, that's why we're friends.

UNDERSTAND. Understand each other. It's like when your friends fully understand your feeling without you tell 'em. Got it?

SHARE. You can share anything with your friends, like new stuff or food. Not only that. You can also share your feeling to them. When you're down, just call your friend and you'll feel better, right?

What I want to tell ya is never tired of looking for friends, you can never live alone, we can never live alone. 

I found a nice quote:

Best friends are people you know you don't need to talk to every single day. You don't even need to talk to each other for weeks, but when you do, it's like you never stopped talking.

Some of my (fail) artworks

I love to use corel draw and PicsArt lately. PicsArt is an android application where we can easily draw whatever we want and also edit or make picture collages. This application is really lovely with some cool effect for photo editing.